So, these are the free tickets I have got. Giggles.
Anyway, do you believe in biting your shoes before you wear them? I actually do not believe it till I do it today. My shoes bite me! So pain, blisters. Oh my god. Lin, Winnie and Carrin was like saying I should bite in the first place, laughs! I had never bite any shoes before in my entire life. So I give it a big bite in the toilet just now. Phew, feel so much better. I wonder is it got to do with "mental consolation"? Hmmm...
I miss my baby! Loads...
She pens her thoughts at
1:08 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Hurt...
Note: This post is created on January 29, Time: 10:22PM.
Just now before going home, I saw him again in the bus interchange. How i wish I can graduate as soon as possilbe. Like that, I will not see him forever in my life. In the bus, I sidetrack a lot. When I always see him, it hurts. It still hurts lots. He said before that he did not hurt me as much as all my ex hurt me but he was very wrong. The hurt he gave was not comparable to all my ex. I was fcuking hurt! Did you get it into your head or you need me to drill it into?
At least, all my ex gave explaination or account to the relationship but you gave an reason (I am being nice by not saying excuse) that every girl cannot accept. I hate it when guys are irresponsible in relationship. I always tell darie that sometimes I really wish that I can grab his shirt and confront him (As if I have the "leopard courage"), "Why the hell did you do this to me?". I am really serious. Darie knows about it. Or in another way, why in the first place you wanted to start that relationship with me? Ahhh, FCUK! Nevermind I am just ranting. Shall keep my cool. Hello? I really did contribute a lot for that 3 months, you know it best. So dude, do I deserve that? You also will not answer if I ask you. Dots.
When I sidetrack, I keep thinking of my baby because my heart really hurts darn lots. Really feel like tearing at that point of time but luckily dear called me and that really curb that emotion in ruling my head.
I really need baby and I love you...
"Baby's still the best of the best!" Giggles.
Fine, 1 year plus more to go before graduating, and I shall say bye to him. Now I understand, why is it that it is better not to see each other again. I know, you are super happy with your single life now. You can do whatever you want without any restrains. Anyway, that does not concern with me anymore. Okay, I have got the tickets from Cineleisure! $13 for free. Laughs!
We took taxi there because that bus 187 do not know stuck at whichever place in Singapore. We wait for like 20 minutes? No bus at all. We reached the aerobic studio at around 7.50PM I guess? I am super tired. Jump and punch, bla bla bla. Very tiring. My house that line socket is faulty thus no internet for me, sighs so I have to type in notepad first.
Currently, the time is 10:22PM. Okay, time to missed call my baby so that he will call me back. Life is really not the same with my baby around. Perhaps, he was the healer of my heart cum the owner of my heart? Laughs!
Love you baby...
Time to sleep. Have to turn in before 11PM, it is good for skin. Baby not here to pat me to bed, how sad? Weeps.
She pens her thoughts at
12:39 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Monday, January 29, 2007
Today's the 29th...
I am super hyper now. Laughs! I miss my baby a lot! Happy 1st year anniversary my baby. Really glad that you come into my life. One year passed already, hope that we can stay together for this lifetime. Anyway, I have created a blog for my baby.
There are 6 cute little puppies. I am carrying one of them only. Laughs. So cute! I have decided to get one puppy when I get married to... Who knows? Laughs!
Someone bought this for me. She is so good! Good good good! Thumbs up. Smiles.
Bought these 2 items. Woot. I got my shoes and bag with my dress. The bag can be played around. Laughs. Worth it afterall. I have got my converse track pants as well for $30.
Done for my shopping day!
Boo. Today's day is quite packed. Later I have to go down to Cineleisure to collect free preview tickets screening "Seducing Mr. Perfect". So baby and me got free tickets to watch on 13 February! Wee.
After going Cineleisure, I got to go home to get changed. Remember, my kickboxing lesson starts today!
Exercise!
Lalala.
She pens her thoughts at
1:26 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Fcuk...
Fcuk that girl call Alice. Fcuk off man! Few months back, I remember you saying that that is your picture. And I did asked whether that is you. Yes, I admit that photo you showed me very chio but hey! You do not need to use another girl's photo and claimed that she is you right? FUCK. I check in friendster and I found out that that one you sent me was faked by you.
So, what have you got to say now? Idiot. You bloody idiot have no integrity. Can see what a slut you are, BIATCH! You make me a fool. Bloody hell.
I have been good nowadays. I did not miss lessons when another 1/4 of semester 2 starts. I have decided.
Rebonding on 13 February!
Hope not many customers are there in my Aunt's salon!
5 hours. Oh god please bless me.
Oh before that, I need to go have a hair-cut.
Seems like my face is getting better! Thanks for those who comment on it! 2 more weeks to have a better result. Cannot wait! If my face gets really better, I want to put my fringe down. Dam..
Differin gel for pimples save my youth and money, do check it out here. $22 for the 30g gel I got from the private clinic near my house. 30g can be used for 2 weeks plus. Lots of Thanks to debris princess for introducing me this. It really works! I still owe you a meal but wait till I fully recover okay? Soon already!(:
Oh, I forgot I met another same-kind BIATCH in maple just now. Despo BIATCH.
What happen to girls nowadays?
Dots.
Sighs, I hate ORANGES! Yes, I know it can help me to have a nicer complexion so I am eating at least one each day.
BUT WHY ORANGES?
Sighs, I have been avoiding fried food and chili, for 2 weeks plus, I MISS KFC, I MISS MAC, OMG!
**Ah hem, dear says I miss KFC and MAC more than him.
... "Okay lahs, I miss you too la. LOL."
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS THEM? Diet diet diet, I shed off 5kg/10kg. Half way to go. Ahhh. I am losing faith in myself. I have been exercising too. Hope the kickboxing exercising can help me in it! Starting on next Monday.
Sighs...
She pens her thoughts at
8:21 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Sighs...
Sighs. Love is such a strange thing. Well, what I am going to say is it is not the end of the world yet. Still remembered how hard rock songs accompanied me through the days of being ditched. That was not nice at all, trust me. Being ditched or a break-up is not the end yet, there are more to life. There are really a lot more to it. Being not able to stand up from failure is the worst ever. When you do stand up after many sheds of tears, you will be stronger and much more stronger than before. That is when your thinkings start to mature and change. Thinkings are changed through experiences.
Xiaokeai chatted with me yesterday. I was like saying I do not know how the future lies. So I do not want to think so much now like whether my mummy going to accept my baby because he is a Malaysian. Well, we are not getting married yet so it will only waste my brain cells. Some may think I am heartless or it is when baby is going to read the sentence "We are not getting married yet.". Do not be mistaken. We should be mature in treating relationships now. I am 19 soon. How long more I am supposed to be lingering around relationships? I have already encountered 3 different endings of relationships and seriously, that is super enough for me.
First year anniversary is like coming for baby and me but thinking back, he is the third guy I am going through 1 year with. THREE not one. So should I be very super excited about it? Yes, I am because we are proceeding to our 2nd chapter of our love story but still how long more can we stay like this? Doubts. Nah, I should not even care about that question over the future. I should just stay at the pace I am at now. No matter what baby, even if one fine day, we are to go on our separate ways, be it whose fault, I still want to say...
"Thanks for everything that you have done for this relationship.". If that day comes, I will weep, I will cry and then move on again. I mean If.
Do not be mistaken again baby. I will want to stay like this till we grow old but I am just not sure whether we can make it or not but still I want to give you and me a chance to be together for as long as we can.
I love you.
After the encounters in relationships, I personally feel that it is best to set your standard in finding attributes for a husband because this way you will not waste each other time to heal hurts as well as each other time. If one does not qualify for it, so be it and just reject. There are more choices you see. I will not be stupid again. Not in relationships anymore.
So, baby if one day you change the way you treat me, I am going to reject you also. Laughs! Beware of your actions. Laughs.
(:
She pens her thoughts at
9:33 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Sorry...
Sunday:
Went to pray at 10am. Laughs. I know my god sister's secret! Though I feel that its sudden and fast for them, still congratulations! Cheers. Then daddy brought us to West Coast there to eat lunch. Realise that mummy has a habit of asking daddy to treat us eat every Sunday! Smiles. After lunch, mummy, my youngest brother and me went to Queensway!
My another brother said he was very sleepy due to entertaining his friends till very late the night before thus he wanted to go home straight to catch nap. Laughs. So, we so called went shopping. In the end, mummy bought a Nike cross training shoes for me. The usual price was $106++, then reduced to $88. So, whoever wanted to get sports shoes, I encouraged you to go Queensway! Cheaper price! Mummy bought a top with hat and black with purple strips behind for me as well. I do not know why but I find clothes with a hat behind very adorable. Laughs!
Actually wanted to buy colar t-shirt like those office-wear one but in the end I drop the idea. Perhaps it was too mature for me to take it though I am nineteen soon. Oh my god. I am really getting older. Sad. Mummy went to buy a top and jeans. So the day ended with this.
Monday:
I do not have school on Monday and Tuesday due to open house. So yes, dear met me yesterday. Went to Vivo City to get stuffs I wanted. Hula hoop, shoe bag and towel. In the end, I bought the shoe bag and towel from Fila. The hula hoop from Toys r Us. Stupid Vivo City. So huge. Arghs. Walk very far, legs very tired. Till now, I still do not know how to shake that hula hoop. So disgraceful.
After that, we went back to my house there to eat lunch. I took chili and I really regretted eating chili! It causes more outbreaks again. Hais. I should have controlled but I eat less than usual already. I never touch chili for a week or so. I think I really should give up chili if I want to have good complexion. So, I made up my mind not to touch it already. Control, control and control!
Baby went back at night. Sighs. Something happened before that. Sorry baby. I know it hurts you but I did not mean to keep my ex's stuff. Baby found out that I keep Oswald's stuff. I know you want me to forget him completely but I can tell you these are solely for memorial sake. I do not know why I cannot bear to dump it away. Perhaps, within that three months, these were what that was left after that short few months thus I really want to keep it.
Hais. When baby said he wanted to help me dump it away, I stunned and then say cannot. It is not because I still love him. Yes, I know baby is helping me to get rid of those stuff that will hurt me if I keep them. I am really touched you did not walk out on me when you saw all these. Yes, I cried but it was not because of his things, it is because I have someone like baby who really wish to protect me from sadness and hurts. Baby knows if I saw this and read his letter, I will feel very sad. Baby even said what for I keep the things that is from the person who hurts me. Thought it through that I should let you dump away but in the end baby said that I will throw it one day myself If I can let it go.
Really so touched. Thanks baby. You really understand me. Hugs. Thanks for being so good to me.
Today:
I finally found the dress I want! Finally. Laughs! I thought of getting a dress for Chinese New year. So yes, I got it! Wees. Hope it will not look so fat on me.
Prays...
Not getting used to dress yet. Left shoes, track pants and contact lenes to buy. Is that all? Smiles. Let me stop here. Getting very lengthy! Will upload pictures of my dress and stuffs soon. Say bye to fats!
TRINITY WU JINGXUAN, JIA YOU! JIA YOU!
She pens her thoughts at
7:27 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
She pens her thoughts at
10:40 AM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Friday, January 12, 2007
Kickboxing...
I signed up Kickboxing with debris princess yesterday at Jurong Sports Council. Just trying out new things. After this, I hope to try out aerobics or step aerobics! Can help me to tone and shape my figure! I also want to try out yoga. It is good for health. My baby encouraged me yesterday to join yoga. Know why? Laughs. It is because if I learnt kickboxing, I will be nasty to him in the sense of violence and yoga is more towards a gentle kind.
Yesterday till now keeps pouring. I wore the couple jacket my baby and I bought in Malaysia today. Smiles. It really helps to keep me warm compared to my jacket. Anyway the fees for Kickboxing is $65, 12 sessions, 1 week once starting on 29 January. But Oh my god. I need a lot of money! Sad. I need to get a lot of stuffs before Chinese New year as well as I need to save a lot of money. Dam.
First, I need to get converse track pants at $40++? Very nice one. Next, I need to get a sports shoe? Budget of $100 but mummy said that she will go out with me on Sunday to check it out. Hopefully, she will buy for me! So I can save more! Laughs! Then I need to save up for rebonding. Hais. If everyday I spend $2++, maximum $3 for eating then I can save up to $10 only. How long do I need to save? If I have some money left after all these, I want to buy contact lenses. I cannot possibly wear spectacles on Chinese New Year right?
Dam. I am just so vain but but but! IT'S CHINESE NEW YEAR! Arghs. New year clothes I really hope that dear can pay! Hopefully. Dear says he will. So, yes, I really hope so. Everything is in place for baby and me but the only thing is finance. We never save. How? Hais. Guess it needs time for dear to carve his carrer. I should be patient. When everything runs so smooth for us, I am thinking a lot again. Will things happen? I hope not. I want my friends to get their happiness too!
Debris princess, he is definately not worth it!
Remember this! Hugs for you.
She pens her thoughts at
1:42 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Happiness...
So happy today.. Just went out to have breakfast with my sister. Talk a lot just now.We talk about my darling. My sis likes her a lot. She said my my darling looks cute, and told me "if you like her,don't give up on her and treat her well". lols im sure baobei see this she'll sure very happy rite ? =x actually not just my sis likes her. My mum and dad also likes her a lot. Good news for both of us.
Me and my darling 1st year anniversary just around the corner. Times flies, I still remembered when i first came to singapore to look for my baobei she still cant believe her eyes. That time she's on her bed sleeping and i never told her that im coming to look for her. Then her maid told her that your boyfriend is here, she said "don't bluff lah" haha i came in and stun whole day. So quiet that day totally not like her =x, i know that she's shy. So start talking and talking and her bro also help me a lot ^^.
Baobei asked me " will you change after we get married ? ". The answer is NO. I won't change.I PLEDGE MY LOVE FOR YOU..
anyway 17 days 13 hours 19 mins to our 1st anniversary.. Hope everything going smooth for both of us this year.
I LOVE YOU BAOBEI..
She pens her thoughts at
10:49 AM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Guys Guys Guys...
Dam. I finally force myself to private clinic just cause of my pimples. Hell with pimples problems. Laughs. Doctor told me that if the gel I used do not work for 1 month, then I have to change to a moderate one. Sighs, why do my parents give me this kind of genes? So sad. I seriously want my skin back! Chinese new year is coming soon. I want to have a nice complexion. Guess it needs time. Cannot be rushed either.
Keep sneezing the whole day but anyway have a lot of fun with Norma and Winnie though Yike did not go school today. I am glad I have these two friends with me! At least life in my polytechnic never get bored cause of them. Thanks a lot. May our bonding helps us get an A for our final year project! Wees. Miss dear always and I manage not to sms him so much either for the sake of saving future money. Laughs.
Found out some stuffs about Lin. Girl, you really got to be strong! When you are falling, please let me know so that I can have the honor to pull you up, remember this okay? I am there.
Jie, you also! Do not let guys push you around. We have our pride and rights in love. Love is about being yourself. Do not always give in unless you are super sure that he is worth it for you to do so, if not just do not bother about him and get that person out of your life. He does not deserve your love for him. FUCK all guys who always let girls down. Please for goodness sake stop taking girls for granted.
You will never know that the girl you miss now is the one who loves you and cares for you the most in this lifetime!
Guys, if you love being appreciated, you should learn how to appreciate girls...
Bear my words in mind.
She pens her thoughts at
9:22 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Sunday, January 07, 2007
The Five Love Languages...
MINE:
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
Physical Touch:
11
Quality Time:
10
Words of Affirmation:
5
Acts of Service:
4
Receiving Gifts:
0
BABY's:
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.
Complete set of results
Physical Touch:
11
Quality Time:
9
Words of Affirmation:
5
Acts of Service:
0
Receiving Gifts:
5
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.
She pens her thoughts at
4:08 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
2007 Resolutions...
2007 RESOLUTIONS.
Of course to change for the better, I have to do these...
MINE: 01- Adapt myself to my family. [Lives in harmony.] 02- Being more positive. [Don't pity myself too much.] 03- Think more realistic rather than idealistic. [Stop building sandcastles in the air.] 04- Be more confident in baby and our relationship. [No more possessiveness.] 05- Faithful to baby. [Flirting disallowed.] 06- Do romantic stuffs with my baby. [Watch sunset, sunrise, go malaysia and have fun.] 07- Save for rainy days! [Perhaps at least 1K?] 08- Study hard to score more As'. [Get the word "PON" out of my life!] 09- Diet and maintain. [I want my figure back, dear feed me too much!] 10- Everyone I know to be happy; friends. [Overcome obstacles and be more optimistic with life.]
BABY's: 1. have a stable carreer 2. never apart from my baobei again >.< 3. earn more money ofcourse ^^v 4. to be very faithful to my only lao po =x. 5. diet diet diet. 6. buy new handphone for my baobei and me. 7. bring my baobei come malaysia travel and play. 8. bring baobei visit my parents often too. 9. build more confident and trust between me and my baobei. 10.all the above wish come true..lol =x
Follow xiaokeai to do these! Laughs. So that the next year we can have a check again. Wees!
She pens her thoughts at
2:52 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
Friday, January 05, 2007
Let Bygones Be Bygones...
Wow. So many months I did not touch on blogging. Anyway to whom who still says you love me still. The title is for you. I do have my principles on relationship. It has been 1 year 6 months plus since we have last broken up. Even if there is a mere chance of being together, I will not want to. The feeling is different. Not only that, everything is very different. I do not understand why you say there is a will, there is a way. Relationship is not like a game that you can restart and play all over again and again. It is only a game whereby you will either lose the relationship or substain the relationship. So, when it is gone, no point asking for it back again. Your chance is gone. So, please do withdraw. You do not expect me to break up with my current boy-friend just to be with you right? That is impossible.
Perhaps, you will ask me this question because you know that I love him very deep the last time. If Oswald is the one asking me back right now, will I still be persistant in my stand. My answer is still yes, I will not go back to him. I hope you understand that there is no point going back to a relationship that is already dead. And I did said something to you that my current boy-friend definitely loves me more than you do because I am sure about that. I am not trying to be heartless to you. It is just that love matters need to be settled clear and decisive if not you will not only hurt yourself; you will hurt people around you.
These few days I realise that it is not easy to be with me. Yes, I care the least about looks because I believe that one day I will grow old with wrinkles too. Not easy in the sense of that I need security a lot. A lot to the extent of being very worried about my partner as well as being super possessive and clingy. That is not a good thing I know but I have been trying to not be so gaga over love. Still, I fail. I remembered that one of my myanmar friend told me that I will be worried about my partner now and then by reading my palm lines.
Luckily, the best part is that my dear never feel tired trying to give me security. It is difficult on his side I know but I really fare lousy when it comes to a long-distance relationship. I will get moody easily at times when he is in another side of the world though it is only few hours journey away from each other. I will not be that sensitive when he is here with me in Singapore. Damn. That is a bad thing. Dear's character suits me a lot right? Laughs. I cannot find a better one that can take my mood swings. Oswald cannot. I remember that when we were together for two months plus, he said that he had already given me all the security he could but still the past was still hovering over me.
I watched Green forest, My home during the holidays. So touching. I envy the girl a lot. She can wait for the vow without accepting any guys that are of good criteria. I cannot do that. I will not wait for something that holds no assurance even if I love that person so much. Perhaps, I am afraid of getting hurt in the end. So, just to protect myself, I have no choice but to close down that chapter like what I did to Oswald's case.
Afterall, I feel that what I am doing is right. He is never meant to be mine in the first place. I am happy with my life with my dear. So, yes. Let bygones be bygones. Hope that I will have a better year ahead with my family, friends and my dear of course. Hoping that I will have no enemies! Laughs. Without him, I can never have that kind of smile on my face. Get it dear? I love you! My hair is getting longer. Laughs. My maid once told me that the longer the hair is, the more lasting the relationship is. So, I sincerely prays that it will be true.
Blow the prayers...
She pens her thoughts at
2:37 PM.
This love of ours is no common flower...
