Friday, October 05, 2007

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Boo...

Haa. Got back from the clinic. My mum didn't get fed up with me because I go to a private clinic. 35 bucks! Seriously, my mama really changed a lot, maybe because I change a lot too. You know I am not like those little baby girl anymore, keep/hide everything within me and such, afraid to even voice out la, bla bla bla. Such a coward right? Ha!


But, hey, I am still like a baby in front of my baby's eyes. Well, which girlfriend doesn't behave like that?

Okay the clinic thingy goes like this...

Doctor: What's your problem?
Me: Giddy for 1 week already.
Doctor: Floating/Spinning Giddiness?
Me: Floating.
Doctor: Is your exams coming soon?
Me: Erm, we usually have tests only. Don't have exams at all.
Doctor: So, is your tests coming soon?
Me: Yeap, soon.

(Doctor checks my breathing speed or whatsoever on my chest and my back la. As usual...)

*Breathe in and out...*

Doctor: Go and lie down.

(Don't think anyhow la. Normal also to check my adominal part la.)

*Breathe in and out...*

Doctor: Try to calm down okay. If you want to breathe, use your nose, don't breathe so fast, breathe slowly.
Me: Hmm, what causes it?
Doctor: You are too excited. You need to calm down. Take a slower breathe. Don't be too stress.
Me: Oh, it is due to stress ah?
Doctor: Yeap. Because you cannot calm down your breathing.
Me: Okay, thank you.


Then I go back I go do some research. It's ANXIETY ATTACK?

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Anxiety is a feeling of unease. Everybody experiences it when faced with a stressful situation, for example before an exam or an interview, or during a worrying time such as illness. It's normal to feel anxious when facing something difficult or dangerous, and mild anxiety can be a positive and useful experience.

When you're anxious, you may also experience a range of physical symptoms. These happen because of the bodies' so-called "fight or flight" response, which is caused by the release of the stress hormone adrenaline. The symptoms can include:

Symptoms of anxiety:
abdominal discomfort
diarrhoea
dry mouth
rapid heartbeat or palpitations
tightness or pain in chest
shortness of breath
dizziness
frequent urination
difficulty swallowing
shaking

AND ANXIETY CAN LEAD TO DEPRESSION! OH NO MAN. I AM WAY OUT OF TRACK FOR THIS LA.

Blue ones are the one I have now lor. I also don't feel any stress till when the doctor said try to breathe slowly then I realise I got so much stress on me because when he said this, I feel like bursting in tears.

Think it has been accumulating since don't know when.

FYP, friendship, grades, missing my baby badly, independance, tuition... All these enough for me. So packed. So dot. Whatever it is, try to relax and that's it, closing my blog is a good decision then! Adjustments!!!

Go out with Keke today! Took neo-prints. We got a high time doing decorations on it. We are both sastified with the outcome! HAHA.

Shall upload when I have time.

Talked to Mentor just now. Seems like he is so F-STRESS too with his workload. HA! He even say hope that we will not meet each other in WoodBridge hospital together when we next cross path. OH! He passed his PhD Oral. Woots. Maybe he can be a lecturer in SIM/SMU. So if thats the case, we may cross path there!

Hope so!

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STRESS STRESS GO AWAY!!!!!