Sunday, May 06, 2007

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Tears...

Msn status: [xxuan hates to cry!] T>T, that drama "One Litre of Tears" makes me cry and cry especially at the end of the espisodes. Sighs. Life is just fragile. I now understand why my mother hates to cry and she always say what is there to cry. Perhaps, she really been through a lot without telling us. That is just my assumption. I am not sure either. She does not like to talk about the past.

After breaking with Oswald, that 3 months, I cry to sleep every night, that is why now I hate to cry even till the extent of how hurt I am. If can, I will try my really best to control my tears. I do not want it to flow. When it flows, I feel so useless. I could have been stronger!

If I had never been together with Oswald, so many things will not change. Before I know him, I can cry super easily and I will not try to stop the flow and now its the opposite. I guess that 3 months of tears to sleep really made me change. I think he is happy with his life now with a girl he likes now. So, all the best and seriously if I will to cross-path with him now, the way I look at him will be very different already. His vow is just fake. It is just a bullshit thing to me. A feeling of betrayal.

I thought he is one who is true about his words and such. When I look at his everything now, I feel that its already very super different. I overlook him. No matter how all my friends say that he is just giving an excuse to ditch me off, I keep telling myself he is not this kind of guys. I am just decieving myself. So, yes, got to keep telling myself he is not the one that I am with last time. He is not that Oswald I used to fall for. Those who are reading my blog sure laugh at me right? Sighs, even if you all are laughing at me, it is still a fact that he broke up with me just for that reason. So, I will just swallow it down.

He is selfish. He is thoughtful. He is one cold-blooded person. He is breaking up with me because he said he loved me and he wanted to let me go. Whatsoever. I am just trying to hide his negative side from the truth. I hate it. It hurts me more.

Skip that, BYTCH!

I took a lot of neoprints this week. I will just post a few. Lazy to cut and such. TADA!

TOO BIG, CLICK HERE!

I watched the Spidey yesterday! HAHA! I actually did not want to go but bibi says he wants! So, I went! Not bad actually seriously. No comments either.

LOVE MY BIBI!

At least he did not once betrayed my trust no matter how hurt he was by me!

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I LOVE YOU!

Happy 15 Months Anniversary! I was late but then I did post it okayyyy && I did not forget it on the actual day! Gagaga.




MAMA! I UPDATE ALREADY! LALALA!

I post about you too. HAHA!