Thursday, April 26, 2007

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Fate...

Sighs, had a dispute with baby again! This time round, quite serious but it was over already. I do not know why. Perhaps, our fate is helping us survive this round again. Recalling back when I went to the two different temples to ask for a lot on our relationship like whether he is my future husband, both gives me good lots. Seriously, there was a lot of times whereby we can easily say goodbye to each other for good.

Like for instance, I recalled my baby was angry with me that I took out his ring because of a dispute again and that he decided to go back to Malaysia and never come back again. That time, I saw him leaving my house door and I did practically nothing alright! It is not beacause I do not want him to stay. It was because I was stunned and my mind was like in a blank stage. I do not know what to say to him either. Know what? Fate helps! He forgot to bring his house key and then he came back. He saw me stunning in the living room. I think he felt that I was very affected by his farewell and thus he came and have a look at me. I cried like hell and he said I win by crying.

Maybe all of you feel that he was just saying without meaning it when he says he is not coming back. I know his character well. He keep emphasising to me that if one day he is leaving me or things like that, he will not find me ever again alright. How heartless a cancerian can be when they are determined on this kind of issues? Same goes for Oswald as they both has the same horoscope. Say me superstitious then.

Not only the lot shows me that we are fated. There are far more coincidences we faced. Few days back, my friend asked me a few questions on my relationship. Seriously a lot of people asked me this question. What makes me choose my baby?

Firstly, I do not mind him being fat. I do mind him being a little taller than me because I love tall guys can! Okay, nevermind, that is not so important at least he is still taller than me! I had become very wary of the guy I am dating with since I broke up with Oswald. Yes, he made me feel very unsecure in love ever since then. Sometimes, I feel like giving up on love. I encountered too many failures in love and I fell too deep because I dump all my 100% in. I felt I am such a fool at times. What to do? God gives me this to go through to make me stronger.

But am I stronger now? Perhaps, it is a reverse psychology. It only makes me lost confidence in dating. So I tell myself to find a guy who can give me shelter of love and stablitly in a relationship. So I put my standard higher on character-wise and not on looks. I cannot afford to be hurt again! NO NO NO!

So being frank, baby's patience and the secureness he gave me in this relationship is the key to my heart man. Without this, I will never stay so long with him! (: I still feel that looks is not important as long as that guy can give you happiness and that you two can get along well in terms of that there is not too much of a character clash, JUST GO FOR THE RELATIONSHIP!

Been chatting with mama Celeste yesterday. Had not have a really good chat with her since we left secondary school. Mama, you got to be strong alright! Let me, your daughter be the healer of your heart. Take care and lets "PIA" for our GPA together! I want to upload my FYP team's photos here! T>T Why photobucket maintanence at such a time!

AHHH. CHEERS to FYP team!