Sunday, January 21, 2007

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Sighs...

Sighs. Love is such a strange thing. Well, what I am going to say is it is not the end of the world yet. Still remembered how hard rock songs accompanied me through the days of being ditched. That was not nice at all, trust me. Being ditched or a break-up is not the end yet, there are more to life. There are really a lot more to it. Being not able to stand up from failure is the worst ever. When you do stand up after many sheds of tears, you will be stronger and much more stronger than before. That is when your thinkings start to mature and change. Thinkings are changed through experiences.

Xiaokeai chatted with me yesterday. I was like saying I do not know how the future lies. So I do not want to think so much now like whether my mummy going to accept my baby because he is a Malaysian. Well, we are not getting married yet so it will only waste my brain cells. Some may think I am heartless or it is when baby is going to read the sentence "We are not getting married yet.". Do not be mistaken. We should be mature in treating relationships now. I am 19 soon. How long more I am supposed to be lingering around relationships? I have already encountered 3 different endings of relationships and seriously, that is super enough for me.

First year anniversary is like coming for baby and me but thinking back, he is the third guy I am going through 1 year with. THREE not one. So should I be very super excited about it? Yes, I am because we are proceeding to our 2nd chapter of our love story but still how long more can we stay like this? Doubts. Nah, I should not even care about that question over the future. I should just stay at the pace I am at now. No matter what baby, even if one fine day, we are to go on our separate ways, be it whose fault, I still want to say...

"Thanks for everything that you have done for this relationship.". If that day comes, I will weep, I will cry and then move on again. I mean If.

Do not be mistaken again baby. I will want to stay like this till we grow old but I am just not sure whether we can make it or not but still I want to give you and me a chance to be together for as long as we can.

I love you.

After the encounters in relationships, I personally feel that it is best to set your standard in finding attributes for a husband because this way you will not waste each other time to heal hurts as well as each other time. If one does not qualify for it, so be it and just reject. There are more choices you see. I will not be stupid again. Not in relationships anymore.

So, baby if one day you change the way you treat me, I am going to reject you also. Laughs! Beware of your actions. Laughs.

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