Tuesday, January 30, 2007

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Hurt...

Note: This post is created on January 29, Time: 10:22PM.

Just now before going home, I saw him again in the bus interchange. How i wish I can graduate as soon as possilbe. Like that, I will not see him forever in my life. In the bus, I sidetrack a lot. When I always see him, it hurts. It still hurts lots. He said before that he did not hurt me as much as all my ex hurt me but he was very wrong. The hurt he gave was not comparable to all my ex. I was fcuking hurt! Did you get it into your head or you need me to drill it into?

At least, all my ex gave explaination or account to the relationship but you gave an reason (I am being nice by not saying excuse) that every girl cannot accept. I hate it when guys are irresponsible in relationship. I always tell darie that sometimes I really wish that I can grab his shirt and confront him (As if I have the "leopard courage"), "Why the hell did you do this to me?". I am really serious. Darie knows about it. Or in another way, why in the first place you wanted to start that relationship with me? Ahhh, FCUK! Nevermind I am just ranting. Shall keep my cool. Hello? I really did contribute a lot for that 3 months, you know it best. So dude, do I deserve that? You also will not answer if I ask you. Dots.

When I sidetrack, I keep thinking of my baby because my heart really hurts darn lots. Really feel like tearing at that point of time but luckily dear called me and that really curb that emotion in ruling my head.

I really need baby and I love you...

"Baby's still the best of the best!" Giggles.

Fine, 1 year plus more to go before graduating, and I shall say bye to him. Now I understand, why is it that it is better not to see each other again. I know, you are super happy with your single life now. You can do whatever you want without any restrains. Anyway, that does not concern with me anymore. Okay, I have got the tickets from Cineleisure! $13 for free. Laughs!

We took taxi there because that bus 187 do not know stuck at whichever place in Singapore. We wait for like 20 minutes? No bus at all. We reached the aerobic studio at around 7.50PM I guess? I am super tired. Jump and punch, bla bla bla. Very tiring. My house that line socket is faulty thus no internet for me, sighs so I have to type in notepad first.

Currently, the time is 10:22PM. Okay, time to missed call my baby so that he will call me back. Life is really not the same with my baby around. Perhaps, he was the healer of my heart cum the owner of my heart? Laughs!


Love you baby...

Time to sleep. Have to turn in before 11PM, it is good for skin. Baby not here to pat me to bed, how sad? Weeps.